it's hard

Sepertinya hari ini silent day? Yeah , may be. i feel that, feel i'll lose again. Ah, it's too hard to explain this. Feels like loneliness and sadness. it's alright for me? i think it's alright but sometimes.....I know it's all my fault, not brave to explain and share it with my family, my friends, and my boyfriend. i'm too afraid to tell them about this. Afraid if they know this, afraid they changing towards of me....#np back to decembernya Taylor Swift